TJ and I have had a few struggles with this amazing and wonderful change in the last 6 months. Since just before AJ arrived I have only been working 1 weekend a month. This was the most sensible thing given the situation. Babysitters are expensive and being a money making cosmetologist takes a little time in a new town. We've had to sacrifice "things" but that's really all they are is "things". We have a roof over our heads, food in our bellies, heat in our house when it's been sooo cold outside, clean clothes, and the list goes on and on. When it's all said and done I'm not going to look back and remember the name or mega pixels of the latest gizmo that I could afford if I was working full time. However on the other hand I'm looking at my life as a Mother...this is not a "dress rehearsal" this is the real deal. NO REWIND BUTTON!
Tonight I was reading my cousins Blog, The Life of a Firefly. She has 4 children and is a stay-at-home, home schooling Mom. The thing is, She is a certified teacher. I looked at her home schooling as being like my doing hair. If my son wants to learn how to do hair, I can teach him. What I'm trying to say is I have NO confidence in myself to be a homeschooling mom.
In her blog she talked about reevaluating. For some reason that never entered my mind. Maybe I CAN do this, with an open mind, a network, a head start and good communication with AJ along the way. In talking with my sister, who has been doing a lot of research to help in her decision about homeschooling, she told me, "Ya know if you think about it...From the time our children are born we are teaching them". Well in those 6 amazing and wonderful months I have seen so many "light bulbs" turn on. We're learning together in someways.
SO this is what I have came to...
Who more than Myself would enjoy teaching, facilitating, encouraging, empowering and watching AJ have those "Ah-Ha" moments. I have the perfect career that I can pick my hours and when the time comes for me to work , I will BUT not at a sacrifice to AJ. I have about 3-4 years to research and make sure I'm equipped with the necessary goods to do the job and do it well. I'm sure it will not always be easy but I know it will be rewarding to know that "My Little Acorn" did grow into a "Great, Strong, Tall Oak" because he did grow "slowly and well".
And so another Adventure Begins : )